it has begun...it is officially 3 weeks into school and so much has already been done.
in retrospect it seems as though time is flying by faster and faster but going through the motions it feels like these past 3 weeks have been going on for 3 months. I guess it has a lot to do with how busy and packed my schedule has become. I made resolutions this year that I am hoping to keep up.
The first is to focus on school
The second is to go to the gym more often/ live a more active lifestyle
The third is to save up money
The fourth and I think most important is...To be nicer to people.
the first 3 resolutions are given i feel, and i just need to really set up a good routine to keep them up. my last resolution is more abstract and i think a lot more difficult for me. i have a tendency to push my limits and a lot of the time i walk a fine line between joking and insult. i am really trying hard to stay away from that fine line. This year, I am hoping to become more of a man in the sense of taking responsibility for my actions, and being more mature. I am trying to be more conscious of what I say and to who i say things too just to make sure i'm not walking the line and just making the mood more light-hearted. I really want to focus on making people feel appreciated for being influences in my life. I am trying to focus on the overall good/positive things about someone that I enjoy about them rather than noticing their sillinesses and poking fun at them[if that makes sense].
I want to change, I want to be a better person, I want to be a better friend, I want to be a better Man. one of the main reasons for these resolutions and for this need for change is that fact that I am now a Sigma for Sigma Phi Epsilon.
I don't know how many people i have told about how i have wanted to go greek and what not, and finally i have the chance. i rushed week 1 and got a bid that same week and things just started to flow and fall into place. Words cant express the amazing feelings i have inside. I have finally been successful in my attempts, in my journey, in my drive. I cant believe that i'm affiliated HaHa its just crazy to think about.
Anyways, back to the resolutions, I knew that by accepting my bid to join the chapter, there was a lot that i would need to change/modify. Definitely my spending habits [no more weekly cham sut gol], next my balance of CPness and school had to be more focused because of the additions, physical fitness is important so that i can play sports and do whatever is required during the Sigma process, and finally my attitude and how i talked to people. I am starting off at the bottom of the chain, no one is going to put up with my attitude/sarcasm. I have to be more conscious of my actions/ words and most of all try to stay away from that "Knowing everything about everyone business" [thanks heather!]. the balanced man program for SigEp does just that helps shape a Balanced Man. I am hoping to grow in this experience and make myself better.
I am going to be super busy this quarter with meetings, and programs, and applications, and extra curriculars, plus trying to get another job to pay for my extra expenses but i'm hoping it will work out!
I still cant believe how everything has worked out so far. I am floating on cloud 9 and i cant wait to see what the rest of the quarter has in store!
