Fights...

i hate fights!!!!

its been less than a week and already another ONE!

why can't people be nice or be nicer. like i understand the whole being annoyed thing or whatever but we're friends...why dont you think about who you're hurting before you say what you say and how you say it.

i honestly believe that its not what you say but how you say it, if you say something in a mean way you are being mean, even if it is a compliment.

i've stood by you for so long and sometimes i dont know how i do it. its FREAKING hard!
sometimes i think oh its just an ish...itll pass...they have a lot on their mind....and then i think wth? i have given up a lot and offered a lot just to help you! to be there for you! i dont ask for much at all, actually i dont ask for anything. i just ask for you to be kind to me!

i love you! youre like family to me, one of my closests friends but many times i just dont get how or why we even get in these situtions?!?!?

maybe its cuz we spend too much time together or maybe its cuz you know me so well or maybe you are annoyed of me and its time to let go of our friendship that was so tight and see where it goes.

honestly, i wont last much longer, i cant last much longer. this ache//frustration//void//inadequacy that i live with wont//cant hold up any longer.

i've built a pretty tough wall//heart to many things but its cracking and i feel us parting, things changing, feelings drifting, something ending.

i denno.

maybeitsforthebest